I had a little coffee this evening so I'm overflowing with excitement and love asnd energy but it's 1am and I have nowhere to let it all out so I'm finishing posts in my draft folder and decided to compose this one.
My whole life the only thing I ever wanted to be was a mom. I had no career goals, no grand visions of riches, I just wanted to be a mom. And though it came with a great deal of heartache I got my wish and there is absolutely no feeling in the world like finally living your dream. My baby is my dream. Not to say that he doesn't cry or scream or destroy diapers and cute onesies like all babies, because he does. But this little boy KNOWS me. Heart & soul, inside & out and as crazy as it sounds to say a newborn knows anything but but boobs and sleep, it's true. Babies are all about energy, whatever you feel they'll magnify it and it's shaped me to be the best version of myself. Once I realized that he feels everything I made an effort to be more positive, more loving, more forgiving and it's made our little family so much better. My baby smiles more than he cries, he loves story time, he's king of snuggles. As I write this he's curled into my chest hugging me and it feels like all joyous parts of my pregnancy all over again. He wakes up in the morning laughing with his giant bright green-brown-gray-blue eyes and everything is right and perfect with the world. I'm so blessed to live this life and to watch my husband step into the daddy role so effortlessly. God is good.
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